Wearing a mask

Being part of the number system changes your identity forever, and you will always have a mark. Living someone’s life you never saw in your own life, you are trained to play a role you never expected to play. Wearing the mask is the only thing that will help you move smoothly through the prison system; it’s like an all-access card used at a big event. But remember, even wearing the mask or playing the role in the number doesn’t guarantee survival at all times. Every move is monitored by the wardens and the prison number system. You constantly get reminded that the prison block is not your mother’s house. Everyone gets the same treatment from wardens, whether you are a number or not. Your rights have been taken away, and you are used as a slave, cleaning behind wardens and prison inmates.

Hopes go blind

Knowing I will be sucked in and stay in the prison hole made all my hopes fade away. Minute by minute, my mind is eating up, my body getting weaker over time because things just become harder. The longing for my family and friends was the only thing I could do. My physical opportunity to be around my family in the flesh was just a dream. It was a place I wanted to be rather than facing the prison challenges daily. It made me so sick and frustrated, made me lose my appetite, and I started to lose weight and energy. I reached a stage where I felt everything was falling in on me because of the choices I made. Wearing the mask made everything worse because when I accepted the mask to be part of me, I did not know it came with big responsibilities and conditions. It was not easy to cope with.

Doing the same things to yourself minute by minute, you feel like you’re drowning in the ocean. It’s not easy to stand up for things you never prepared yourself for. It’s a dark imaginary world you’re trapped in; it’s a feeling of longing I never want to feel again. It’s like being in a real-life horror, drowning in your sorrows, trying to break free of the fears and difficulties. It makes it worse, knowing there is no way out. So, before making choices, do it mindfully.

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The return of former prisoners to prison

When inmates are released on parole, it means that an inmate is still sentenced but will finish their sentence outside prison under the supervision of correctional services. Parole is granted to any prisoner depending on the type of sentence and the inmate’s good behaviour.

However, I think parole has contributed to the return of prisoners to jail because after prison, they go back to the same society and sometimes commit even more crimes than they did before. Even though offering parole to inmates can be a big advantage to jails since it reduces overcrowding, in my opinion, inmates must finish their sentences to understand the harshness of jail. This way, when they are released, they won’t commit the same crimes again.

Prison is a very controlled environment; it is very different from life outside in the community. Many prisoners have been removed from the community for a long time, and returning can be challenging and difficult for them, which is why they are granted parole. I have seen inmates who were supposed to be in jail for as long as 25 years being released on parole after serving 10 months. They go back to the community and don’t even spend a month outside before returning to prison.

I think the supervision of inmates on parole is poor, and parole officers don’t do a lot of follow-ups. That’s why inmates return to prison so quickly. Releasing prisoners on parole before they finish their sentences also leads them to engage with their old friends who are still involved in crime, leading to more inmates in prison.

My recommendations

However, parole has many advantages for the jail, society, and inmates. Parole makes things easier as there will be lower costs because the jail won’t spend as much on feeding prisoners, among other expenses. Parole has increased restitution and community support as prisoners engage in community services.

I think the correctional services must establish some institutes to keep inmates who are on parole occupied, so they don’t return to prison again.

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I was managing three jobs at once. One job required me to wake up around three in the morning, take a shower, get dressed, make a brew, and have a break until around 4:30. The waking-up part was the least challenging. By that time, I was already in the kitchen, slicing bread and preparing sugar, coffee, teabags, and milk (sometimes, I’d be on my way to the office block, as the kitchen at work was a helpful resource).

Leaving prison

After two weeks, the captain told me that I was going to leave prison. “Okay, fine, you heard from the captain as soon as you leave.” While working at the office block, I was assigned as the type of cleaner they needed. When I entered the office, there were two ladies working. I took the broom and walked down the office room, starting from the back end. I began to sweep, and when I arrived near the front, I saw R20. I took a look at it and swept near the R20. Next, the captain came in, and the ladies asked for money for something they said. I replied that I just liked doing this. Yes, when I could do this, there was no money involved; I gave them back the money.

Working conditions

My part-time job involved running around with drugs and cell phones, with getaway pay left, right, and centre. When I had enough money, I’d go to my two favourite wardens and pay my “tax” by buying them a 2L bottle of coke. I never had any problems with my two wardens.

Interaction with the centre head

The head of the centre, known as “The Last Don,” was like a mafia boss in his own right. One day, the head of the centre told Austin to call me to his office. When I arrived, I greeted the master, and he told me to sit down. His first question was whether he could trust me. I said, “Yes, master.” He then gave me his car keys and a letter, instructing me to go with his car. At the same time, he gave me a paper letter. I took the car keys and went to the kitchen to gather the things I needed to clean the car. The warden asked me how I was doing, and I replied that I was doing well. I explained that when I could do this, there was no money involved, and I gave them back the money. However, I had to be careful because if caught with money, I would face serious charges. The ward loved the fact that someday she wouldn’t have to pay. She was sorry that this happened to me, and I had to go this time.

Working in the kitchen

I wanted to work in the kitchen because it kept me busy, and I didn’t feel my sentence. When I arrived at the kitchen, there was a sense of unity and brotherhood among everyone. We helped each other, and there was real teamwork, making the work feel less burdensome.

Daily routine and additional jobs

I used to start at 4:00 in the morning and would be out by 12:00. After that, I still went to the office block to help out the ladies and a coloured guy. They asked if I was working two jobs, and I said yes. They asked how long I had been doing this, and I replied for two months. Every month, both salaries were in my possession. In the kitchen, Lee was the big boss, and his money stayed with the wardens. His drugs stayed in the kitchen; he even knew about it. We lived by the rules: you don’t steal; you ask, and you get everything. If you steal, they’ll take ownership of you. JJ and 88, all of them, stayed together. If you stole, they could kill you and flush you down the drain.

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How phones and drugs are smuggled in prison

During my imprisonment in Pollsmoor, drug smuggling and mobile phones were brought in when prisoners were transported from court to prison. A new inmate who is not a gang member cannot smuggle a phone into prison; only gang members know how to do this, and only a gang member is allowed to own a phone in prison, according to gang law.

Money, as a legal tender, is not allowed in prison, but some inmates also smuggle money. The circulation of money in prison happens when inmates exchange money for marijuana or drugs such as crystal meth.

In the courtroom, inmates smuggle phones and drugs, hiding them on their bodies (I can’t explain how for some reasons). Inmates can hide drugs or phones without the knowledge of prison wardens, even after being searched. Some inmates hide them in their clothes and shoes. Owning a phone in prison can make an inmate feel like they own the whole prison, as other inmates can communicate with their families through them and send vouchers. Some inmates start a business using a phone; I have witnessed this myself. I also believe that there are corrupt officials who smuggle items into the prison for inmates.

Confiscation of phones and drugs in prison

Even though inmates continue to smuggle drugs and other illegal items into prison, the prison authorities have made efforts to confiscate these items through well-trained prison wardens. During my time in Pollsmoor, I saw wardens in black uniforms, commonly known as “Tacmac” in prison. They would search entire sections, sometimes using sniff dogs, especially when they suspect that an inmate has a phone or a sharp object used to stab other inmates or wardens.

I also heard that if an inmate is found with illegal substances or items like a mobile phone, they are charged and given another sentence.

The smuggling of drugs and phones in prison can never be completely stopped, despite the efforts made by the prison authorities to prevent it. This issue is exacerbated by the rapid increase in the number of inmates going to and from court daily, the high rate of prison gangsterism, and corrupt prison officials who work with inmates.

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The day it began

I remember the day I was locked away: the sound of the door slamming shut behind me, the feeling of being trapped, of being caged. It’s a sensation that never fades, a constant reminder of my confinement.

A colourless existence

The days are a blur of grey and white, devoid of colour, joy, and life. I’m surrounded by the sounds of despair—the cries of the broken, the screams of the damned. It’s a symphony of suffering, a chorus of pain.

Glimmers of hope

But even in the darkness, there’s a glimmer of hope. Memories of loved ones, of happy times, of freedom, haunt me, taunt me, tease me. They’re a bittersweet reminder of what I’ve lost, of what I’ve left behind.

I’ve seen the worst of humanity: the cruelty, the indifference, the brutality. But I’ve also seen the best: the resilience, the strength, the hope. It’s a paradox, a contradiction, a mystery.

Cherishing small pleasures

I’ve learned to cherish the small things, the tiny pleasures, the brief moments of beauty. A sunrise through the bars, a bird’s song in the distance, a gentle breeze on my skin. They’re reminders that life still exists, that beauty still prevails.

The ever-present longing

But the longing—oh, the longing—it’s a constant companion, a shadow that follows me everywhere. It’s a yearning for connection, for comfort, for love. It’s a hunger that can’t be satisfied, a thirst that can’t be quenched.

Dreams of freedom and hope

I dream of freedom, of walking outside, of feeling the sun on my skin, of breathing fresh air. I dream of loved ones, of hugs, of kisses, of laughter. I dream of life, of living, of being alive.

And so, I hold onto hope, onto memories, onto dreams. I hold onto the belief that one day, I’ll be free; that one day, I’ll be reunited with loved ones; that one day, I’ll live again.

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Confined by mistakes

I pace back and forth in my cell, the cold concrete beneath my feet a constant reminder of my confinement. The iron bars seem to close in on me with each passing day, suffocating me with the weight of my mistakes.

I think back to the choices that led me here, the reckless decisions that destroyed lives and futures – my own future. I’m consumed by regret and anger, hatred burning within me like a fire.

The Monotony of prison life

The days blend together in an endless blur of grey and white, the only colour coming from the fluorescent lights overhead. Time loses meaning when every day is a carbon copy of the last. The monotony is a special kind of torture, a slow drip of water eroding my sanity.

I see the world passing by through the small window high above my cot. People live their lives, laughing and loving, while I’m trapped in this tiny box. The injustice gnaws at me, fuelling my resentment.

Confronting guilt and shame

But deep down, I know I’m exactly where I belong. My actions have consequences, and this is mine. The guilt and shame I carry are heavier than any sentence.

As the years drag on, I’m forced to confront the person I was and the person I’ve become. The hate I have for myself is a palpable thing, a living entity that wraps around my throat and squeezes tight.

Seeking redemption

In the darkness of my cell, I search for redemption, a way to make amends for the pain I’ve caused. It’s a journey I take alone, fraught with obstacles and uncertainty.

But with each passing day, I inch closer to forgiveness – not for myself, but for those I’ve hurt. I realize that my hate and anger only perpetuate the cycle of hurt, and that letting go is the only way to truly break free.

Transformation and hope

Even behind bars, I can choose to change, to grow, and to find a way to make my time count. The hate I have for being here can become a catalyst for transformation, a reminder that I am capable of more than I ever thought possible.

As I lie on my cot, staring at the ceiling, I whisper a promise to myself: I will rise above this place, above my past. I will find a way to make a difference, to leave a mark that’s not stained by pain and regret. And with that promise, I find a glimmer of hope in the darkness.

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I would like to take you on a personal journey to validate the experiences and choices I made whilst I was actively involved. I am willing to take you deep inside the prison walls and the Number gang, sharing with you every detail that transpired and my involvement with the Number gang. I hope to put you in my shoes, and by the end of this article, many questions will be answered, sparking a chord towards the change we, as ex-offenders, want the readers to understand.

Number

When I was eventually sentenced to imprisonment, I already knew about the Number gang inside the prison. At the time, I was not too bothered about it. My main focus was to serve my sentence, mind my own business, and hopefully, by doing so, get out on parole quickly. This was not the case!

I was admitted to the correctional centre for maximum offenders. I was aware that I was with the Big Boys, hardcore, and the worst of the worst. Eventually, I got to my cell, where I was to spend my time. The place seemed to have order, and the guys seemed to have the same mindset as me, except for other individuals, the Number gang.

Falling for the bait

One 28-member gave me a lot of grief about how I should be respectful towards him, like a lady should. I was not having it! I spent any time I could sharpening my toothbrush against the shower wall, preparing myself for a possible encounter. And believe me, I did. One evening, as I was coming from washing my plate and walking down the passage towards my bed, I suddenly noticed a massive yard broom being swung at my head. Somehow I ducked, escaped the broom, and positioned myself to stab him between his shoulder and arm. I executed my turn and broke off the toothbrush afterwards to ensure that I was not going down that easily.

Within seconds, amidst all the blood and shouting in the cell, prison wardens entered, beat me to a pulp, and threw me into a single cell. I got it real good! I remember I could not feel the cold because my whole body was hit warm.

The following day, the 26 Number gang approached me and told me that I was going to die for my actions, so I had no choice but to make the decision to survive. I wanted to go home, at any cost, even if I had to join the Number gang.

Overtime – things I did

As the days, weeks, and years passed, I was completely unaware of how the Number had manipulated me into violent stabbings, always finding myself in isolation or single cells. By then, my prison file was full of violent incidents involving me. I told myself that I surely was not going to make it home. Until I was called in by the head of the prison, and we had a long discussion about my behaviour. Either I was to stop and change, or he would be forced to deny me parole.

Change is possible

I took a long look at myself, and to be honest, I could no longer recognise myself in the mirror. The colour in my eyes was completely dark, and it shook me deeply in my soul. I could not do it alone, as I was so deep in the Number that if I refused the work, surely I would be the next. By the grace of God, I was able to rehabilitate myself and refrain from violence.

My life outside has also been sadly involved with the Number, but I do my utmost to refrain from participating with them.

Every day is a struggle, but staying on the right path and involving myself in change helps me to stay grounded.

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Gangsters and their operations

Let me start with the gangsters, the guys come from the court. They have already talked to the wardens. At the reception block, I must help the other cleaners. The wardens will show you the guys, and we must go pick up the stuff. By the word stuff, I mean knives, drugs, weed, and cell phones. After the mission is done, the wardens will get money from the gangster. This is a very dangerous job. The money arrived. I get my share with orders like don’t be careless with the money. Luckily, I speak seven languages. All the wardens like my style.

Collaboration with wardens

Second on the list is the wardens. They will escort you so that we can get the money. The wardens at Kimberly let me say too much alcohol. They are drunks. Even during lunch time, they will go and drink cold beers. When they come back from lunch, they will do things carelessly. I just think to myself, he’s a warden, and I am an inmate. My job is inside of prison. My family supports me, and he supports his family with the money that the state pays him.

Life among criminals

The criminals are the 26, 27, and 28. They are dressed in orange uniforms. Some of them are smart criminals, clever criminals with bad ideas. They just want to break the law and follow their own rules. The gangsters are from K1 to K5. They are from K1 to K5. When you are a gangster, that will be your paradise. There is no jail. There is a centre point. Everyone must pass, and as you come there, you will find the wardens sitting there doing nothing. They know that Josta is in the area. I know they are going to send me to the kitchen for food. They don’t bring lunch to work. They will eat the inmates’ food. I’ll go and come back with food. That time, I have phones and drugs on me. Now I hit the freeway safely.

Interactions with the cooks

Now I am talking about the fat cats. The cooks, you will find them from K8 to K10. At the back of my mind, I know that I must also help them transport and deliver drugs. So that I can have a nice plate of food, I have everything that I need. They say a hungry lion is an angry lion. So don’t mess around with a hungry lion. During lunchtime, you will always find me at the centre point. Let me say when I come out of the kitchen, the wardens are full of smiles. I’ll bring them nice chicken and so on. 2L of Coke. I know what I am going. When I get back to K3, they know that the staff arrived safe and sound. No problem, no complaints. Now they will make me safe and believe me, I will come out of K3. I know it’s a job well done.

Building relationships in prison

The place where you can make friends is at the soccer field and at the shop. I never had seven pairs of sneakers, but in prison, it was my first time. With a lot of things that I have, I used to give guys that never got visits. I also didn’t get many visits, but I start with my work. Because I had a way to make things possible. Let me say I was a Robin Hood, steal from the rich and give to the poor guys. I was never caught because I smile and laugh with everyone.

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Hiding emotions

I wear a mask to hide my emotions, navigating a narrow path dictated by the prison system. My ancestors’ legacy weighs heavily on me, forcing me to participate in dangerous tasks daily. The threat of violence lurks around every corner, making me constantly vigilant. I feel like I’m walking on eggshells, never knowing when the ground will crack beneath me.

Constant alertness

The prison can turn into a war zone at any moment, without warning. That’s why I always sleep with one eye open, prepared for the unexpected. Either the inmates or the task force wardens, armed with shock bats and weapons, storm our cells, searching for contraband. They arrive unannounced, usually at night, when we’re most vulnerable. The sound of their boots echoes through the corridors, striking fear into our hearts.

Severe consequences

When something is found, the consequences are severe. Inmates face punishment, including food deprivation and beatings. Some are taken away to solitary confinement, where they suffer further abuse. The prison system erases our existence, hiding our fate from our families. We’re reduced to mere numbers, stripped of our humanity.

A glimmer of hope

But there’s a glimmer of hope. Programs organized by the civilization society bring a sense of calm and excitement. For a brief moment, we forget the harsh realities of prison life. It’s a beautiful dream, a respite from the darkness. We engage in activities, share stories, and connect with others. Our minds are stimulated, our spirits lifted.

Dreams of freedom

Being incarcerated means losing our rights and freedom. Winter days feel endless, like a dog trapped on a short leash. The cold winds howl outside, a reminder of the world beyond our confinement. But the civilization society’s programs offer a glimmer of hope, a reminder that there’s life beyond the prison walls.

Holding onto hope

In those moments, I envision a future beyond the bars. I dream of reuniting with loved ones, feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin, and breathing fresh air. I imagine a life where I can make choices, pursue my passions, and live without fear. The programs give me strength, motivating me to hold onto hope, no matter how fragile it may seem.

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Adjusting to prison life

Going on the outside to be back within those four walls took me back to my old life, and it was like the wolf inside of me wanted to come back and just throw everything away. Back on the outside, like I said, I made a choice. I think the worst part of going back to prison was not about what would happen to me but what would happen to my kids at home. I know that they look up to me and that they love me just as I love them.

I should break my habit of thinking about it, and with being back behind bars, it’s like all that I worked for during 10 years will be for nothing. And all the people that stood by me through this difficult time, how should they look at me, and what will they think of me? Yes, it can lead to trouble inside because of my mind and that most of the people I left in prison are still inside, so I have to keep my head up.

The return

Back in the same room that I was initially tried in, the same room where I found interest in the number and for an ex-gang member, do you know how hard it is not to want to go back to the number? I think as I enter that room, I get the exact smell I did on my first time in prison. And just that is enough to make you crazy because all of it is starting all over again, and that is one of the things that kept me on the positive side, not wanting to be here and that I know there is a light ahead.

Reflection

Since on the outside, I think that the time takes the longest to pass because I came back so early and right around the time, I just could not come to terms with it so that time may pass and so that I may go back home. It took hours before getting dark, and even hours before it became light the next day. And I’m lying on my bed thinking about what I did wrong and how I could have changed it into something better that kept on playing in my mind.

Inside prison, all one can do is to think and to never stop thinking about what one did wrong. I think with all the activities of gang life in prison, you need a plan for your future. If you are part of a gang inside, my help would be if not joining a gang inside.

Prison realities

There are three things in prison that I don’t like. Number one is to be locked up and not come to do anything about it. It just takes more away from one as a human and makes you think less about yourself. Number two is the wardens because they are full of crap, and they don’t even care about a prisoner. Okay, but not all of them are the same, and some of them are good at heart. Number three is the food; it is not what a human should eat. Yes, it is food, but not all of us love what is given to us, and most of the people tell them to put it all there.

Final thoughts

I think that for those few hours to pass was so long, and I just could not wait for the next day to come and just get out of that place. It’s a wonder how some of the other people can go in and go out, and just a few days later that person is back in prison. For me, if I can stay away from it, I’m glad to do so.

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How life outside prison affects inmates and leads them to return to prison

In South Africa, life outside prison affects inmates, causing them to keep coming back to prison. With the rise in the unemployment rate, many inmates have been released from prison only to return. Some inmates released on parole break their parole rules and go back to prison with even longer sentences than before. Unemployment, drug abuse, and gangsterism are illegal activities that send former inmates and ex-convicts back to jail. Because of unemployment, people who live in high-risk suburbs, such as Manenberg and Gugulethu, end up engaging in armed robbery and other crimes to make ends meet.

Most inmates in Pollsmoor convicted of murder committed gang-related crimes. Other inmates, upon release, seek revenge, leading them to return to prison. When I came out of prison, I joined the PAR research group, which helps former inmates avoid returning to their old habits through various discussions that keep us busy. If the government or correctional services establish similar institutions to guide and supervise ex-convicts, the number of ex-inmates returning to prison could be reduced. Most inmates who return to prison are those released on parole. When I was in prison, I witnessed inmates released on parole, but after two weeks, they returned with ten-year sentences or more.

How life outside has increased gangsterism in jail

Because inmates keep returning to prison due to unemployment and drug abuse, the high crime rate leads to overcrowding in prisons. This has increased the growth of gangsterism and prison violence. In areas like Cape Town CBD, many people live on the streets, and most of them are gangsters outside prison. They keep coming back to prison, bringing new inmates and hoping to influence and recruit them as gangsters inside and outside prison. According to my research, outside gangs and prison gangs have a mutual relationship. For instance, someone in Manenberg would aspire to be a gang member both outside and inside prison. This cycle of coming in and out of prison keeps evolving.

South African correctional services should establish more recreational services in communities or create projects to keep youth in high-risk suburbs engaged. The government should reduce the unemployment rate to break the cycle of inmates going in and out of prison and to reduce gangsterism.

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A chance encounter

It all started with a pen and piece of paper inside the dark hole called prison. It was one of the best days I had in prison because I was locked up 24/7 with no activities. It’s like you are forced and controlled, and knowing your human rights have been taken away. But this day, three females and one male walked through the passage that separated the prison rooms. With all the voices and sounds that the other prison inmates made, it was just so chaotic. Just imagine all the inmates shouting at the three individuals and the wardens trying to quiet the prisoners. It made it very hard for me to ask what they were doing in the prison block, but I struggled to get my question through to them. I just shouted, “Can I also join?” Then one lady, Lisa Harries Marqua, turned around and said, “I will see what I can do.” They all went into this small phone booth room, and I thought she was lying. That’s when she came back with the prison warden, handed me a piece of paper and a pen, and asked me to write down my details. The warden then asked me to follow them into the room where I participated in this unexpected program.

The transformative program

At first, I just wanted to join the program to get a little more time out of the cell block and explore because that place is full of stress and negativity. But as time went on, being a participant in the program became very interesting because I was seeing people more often. Being in that space was very meaningful because I learned so much from Restore. Having that positivity after being locked up 24/7 is like a dream. Being amongst positive people inside the thick dark holes—some of us called it the never-ending nightmare—was a blessing. It’s a place where there is no peace and harmony, full of fear and negativity. It’s very hard if it’s only the prison system you occupy yourself with; the days become harder and longer.

The impact of civil society

That’s where the role of civil society in prison comes in because that’s still the only hope you have in prison. Since the program became part of the prison system, most of the things in prison started changing because the inmates started looking forward to participating in the programs. From my experience, I changed so much for the better. Most of the prisoners who couldn’t read got the platform to learn through the programs. I myself didn’t believe in hope or God, but after being part of the program, I gained hope. I was part of a group that cared; we were like a happy family. It was a space where you could be yourself and didn’t have to wear a prison mask, acting to be someone else.

Life-changing benefits

As time went by, prison became easier because we always had something to do other than following the strict rules in prison. Restore made sure we had homework and things to occupy the prisoners participating in the program. Days went quicker, and things became better because wardens started to treat me better as they saw changes in me. I became more humble. Since the day I started the Restore program in 2011 inside prison, Restore has helped me and is still helping me and so many other prisoners to get back into our lives and give back to our communities. Helping with work and education makes the role of civil society very important for prisoners and the community the prisoner returns to. The positive impact the programs have on us has a very big positive ripple effect on so many people in our community and family.

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How to survive as a ‘frans’ (non-gang member) in prison

Once your journey starts as a prisoner, you have to be a gang member to survive, but this comes with a terrible initiation and fighting for your rank. This has consequences because most activities associated with gang members are illegal and could lead to extended sentences within the prison.

During my time in Pollsmoor, I witnessed that to survive as a Frans, you must not talk too much, only when necessary, and listen the most. This will help you gain a little respect.

If you are a non-gang member, keep a low profile. Avoid drawing unnecessary attention and talking too much, as this will cause you a lot of disrespect. According to my experience in prison, minding your own business will help you stay out of trouble. Joining gangsterism is not forced but a choice. Many people have stayed in prison without joining gangs.

As a non-gang member, you have to be smart and never try to provoke anyone, as this will lead to unnecessary fights and disrespect, resulting in oppression. As a Frans, avoid overcrowded places, talk to a few people, and make friends with smart individuals because that’s where confrontations occur. When I was in prison, I spent a lot of my time reading, and no one would provoke me. Even gang members confronted me respectfully because there was mutual respect between us.

Another thing that protected me as a non-gang member was that when I got a job, I had many privileges and shared whatever I got with everyone. This helped me gain respect and make friends with top gang members, eventually leading to an offer to join the gang.

Effects of being a non-gang member

No matter how you try to dodge being a Frans, you will be affected in prison because it has rules and people who control everything. You will clash or have arguments, which will lead to physical violence.

Overcrowded prison cells in Pollsmoor cause physical violence, leading to abuse of non-gang members. As a non-gang member, you are most likely to do all the duties and are forced to do whatever gang members say without retaliation. This includes washing their clothes, cleaning, and making their clothes, etc. I heard stories that in maximum security prisons, some inmates are even abused sexually. I have never witnessed this, but with the circumstances of prison life, I won’t disagree with these rumours, as some vulnerable inmates are terribly abused in many ways.

Learning to navigate prison politics

During my incarceration in Pollsmoor, I experienced that to survive without being abused or oppressed by gang members, you must have something useful to them, so they keep you close.

For instance, I worked as a visitor cleaner and had the privilege of walking all over the prison. I was used to transport illegal items such as drugs, marijuana, cigarettes, and cellphones. Besides that, I used to get a lot of valuable items for gang members, such as sugar and milk. They kept me close until they offered me to join them.

However, not every inmate can get the privilege I had because that was my psychological strategy for surviving in prison. A new non-gang member can be in hell due to ill-treatment by gang members, and it depends on how you cope with and handle it.

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Entering the prison system

That’s where the bumpy ride in prison starts. The first week in prison is stressful, moving from one place to the other, wardens getting your file ready for prison. 

It starts with the body search before entering prison; wardens grab you like an animal out of the transport truck with handcuffs. Being ushered into a small room, where you see other men naked, getting orders from a grumpy warden who is rude, shouting at the men to go up and down.

Experiences of humiliation

If you take too long, you get a smack and a taste of their shiny boots against your legs and a knock on the head. It’s just so cruel what they do to the prisoners, and the weight is just getting heavier, knowing you won’t be going home anytime soon.

It’s even harder after the body search; it’s straight to the fingerprint station and registration, where you get your prison number and know which cell block you are going to.

Already, the exposure you got from the body search station makes you feel scared and nervous because you don’t know what to expect next. With all the noises and the smells and dark atmosphere, with the sad and angry voices you hear as you sit and wait to go to your place, where you will stay, all the negative things you hear and see makes the goosebumps come automatically.

Facing other inmates

Strange-looking prisoners with tattoos all over their faces and bodies shout at you, making negative comments—for example, “This is not your mother’s house”—and being threatened by them makes it worse because it’s your first time and an experience that can’t be explained and something you can never forget because the prison system is a world on its own.

Going to prison is like being born again: it’s hard to walk but easy to fall. The only thing you wish for at that time is to rewind back time and not commit the crime. All you want is to be at home, knowing it’s impossible makes it even harder because life goes on and the time is moving very slow, not knowing what the time is, hardly seeing sunlight.

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Moe

Number gang is the main activity in South African prisons, and it is a culture with norms, values, rituals, and strict rules.

Reasons for joining the number gang

During my time of incarceration in Pollsmoor, I witnessed why people join the number apart from it being just an activity practiced by inmates out of boredom and to pass time in prison. The major cause of why inmates join the number is the ill-treatment you get when you are a non-gang member. You are considered a coward and not man enough. Once you get the number, you are considered man enough, and your boldness will make you gain respect.

Advantages of being a gang member

Once you gain respect, that is the biggest advantage, as you will be able to dominate and rule the jail wherever you go as long as you are in jail. This advantage comes with robbing or taking whatever you like from non-gang members. You have the power to make non-gang members do whatever you like without them retaliating.

When I was in prison, I was in a juvenile section, and most of the children who came to prison grew up in townships and Cape Flats. Townships such as Manenberg and Gugulethu are coloured and black locations where there is the highest crime rate, such as weapon trafficking, drug abuse, poverty, etc. These people, when they come to jail, in order to protect themselves, they have to join the gang number. So the other advantage is to protect yourself from enemies. Once you get the number, you are protected by other gang members from whoever wants to attack you.

Disadvantages of being a gang member

Even though joining the number in jail comes with a lot of advantages, there are also many effects. This includes prison violence. Once you join, violence in prison means you are able to commit more crime within the prison, and that means you will stay longer in jail. For instance, if you are in a number gang and you want to get a bigger rank in the number, you have to spill blood by stabbing someone, which means you will be sentenced for that offence.

Another disadvantage is that if you are a gang member and involved in illegal number activities, your chances of getting parole and other privileges within the prison decrease. Other inmates are granted privileges due to their behaviour.

The other disadvantage of joining the number is that you will create more enemies within and outside prison. You will never know who is going to attack you, as the number gang comes with activities that oppress others who will want to seek revenge one day. Your chances of dying anytime are high.

The number gang has advantages and disadvantages, but it is a culture that only works inside prison. Inmates who have dedicated themselves to this kind of life end up dying in jail. Most of them end up getting life sentences. Prison violence, physical abuse, and other criminal activities will be forever present as long as the number gang still exists. Efforts have been made to stop gangsterism, but they have never helped.

As someone who has been in jail, I can’t advise someone to join the number gang or not because it’s a choice. There are many inmates who stayed long in prison but remained non-gang members, and there are inmates who stayed in jail for a short time but joined the number.

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How I adapted to prison life

As time went on, I got used to the routine in prison. I initially didn’t want to eat the food because I wasn’t used to the white mielies. Then I sold my mielies for a four-kit every day, but afterwards, I told myself, “See how fat these people get. I also want to pick up like them.” At first, I was someone who didn’t communicate with the other prisoners. I always sat on my bed or, if it was exercise time, I would go sit alone outside or look for ‘homies’ that stay here by me.

The living conditions

The room that I slept in was room 8. There are no ‘ouens’, only ‘franse’ as they say in prison. There, you can lay until whatever time, but you have to be up in the morning before they come count the inmates, and you must make your bed before the wardens come to count.

Nearing the end of the sentence

As time went on, I was nearly finished with my sentence. Then I went to the phone box, and my mommy told me the correctional service was here by us to ask if I can come out on parole. Then I told her nope, I’m fine, I only got a few months left. That’s when I started to get used to the prison life. Okay then, she started to visit me and put money on my property, that’s for tobacco, instant porridge, and luxuries. Now, I’m starting to get used to the prison life. Right, we wake up at six o’clock in the morning. We always prayed in the morning and before bedtime. There was a brother in the room, he was from Uganda. That’s a place where you don’t have time for yourself because there’s always someone who’s going to bother you.

The challenge of cohabitation

I slept with a homey from that stays here at the same place here by me in Manenberg. I went to prison to finish my sentence. When I get a visit, then my mommy must always give his name. I got so fed up with him, I had to ask our warden to move him out of my room because I started to feel like someone who’s working in a crèche. I’m already in prison for my wrongdoings, now you also come with your problems by me. That’s all. Things I did like in prison, but the hardest part of all was, I did miss out on Christmas and New Year’s Eve. I missed my salads and truffle.

Every year, I said I’m going to eat truffle, then I end up in prison. The hardest part of prison is you can’t walk late outside; they lock you up early, and there’s a time when they just decide not to give you exercise. Then you must sleep all day, and there isn’t even a TV. Now, you have to watch against four walls or sit and talk. Let it get dark; let you get into your bed, and if they come to count, they’re going to lock the prison now, and if you’re not at your room, then you must stay there where you are, and that’s not to sleep on someone else’s bed. You’re itching all night, especially if they don’t like to wash, and that’s the only bed that’s open. You don’t have other options; you must go lay there on that bed.

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My initial struggles

At first, I got nowhere. I received a cold shoulder, and it took several attempts, all of which failed. I became very despondent. Somehow, I found the courage to try again, and eventually, I succeeded. Someone responded to me positively and started opening up to me as well. It felt good to know that I wasn’t the only one feeling that way about my life and situation.

How I built connections

We talked for hours, relating to many things such as how we got there and what we needed to do to get out of that situation. We shared childhood stories and chatted about anything, which made time pass much quicker. We stood together and protected each other as much as we could. Very quickly, we could feel things starting to improve. Our situation felt less hectic, and we boosted each other’s morale every day.

When tragedy comes…

One day, I woke up and found he was no longer next to me. He had gotten into an altercation with a gang member during the night and was stabbed several times. I wanted to know where he was. Eventually, I found out he was in the infirmary, in ICU, and not doing well. I was beside myself and didn’t know how to cope with that feeling. I felt alone again, and it was horrible. It turned out he was taken to a different hospital and was really not doing well. I was now dealing with emotions I wasn’t familiar with anymore.

…You must cope with loss

I started isolating myself from everything and everyone. I wasn’t eating or doing anything else. Eventually, I heard that he had passed away from his stab wounds. I broke down and felt empty. I became hard and cold, started fighting with everyone in my cell, even with gang members. I just didn’t care about anything anymore.

A heartfelt visit

Then one morning, I got called for a visitation. It was his mother and his sister, whom he had told so much about me, and I didn’t even know that. I started crying when I learned about this. It broke my heart. We spent the visit crying together, and even after I got out of prison, we stayed in contact. His name was Mofo. R.I.P, my friend.

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Discussing problems

We, as ex-offenders, have all paid our dues when it comes to the daily issues we face. We feel that as changed individuals, we battle and make changes towards a better future. We discussed our issues amongst each other. All the problems we face are similar; each one of us wrote down our problems, placed them into a box, and we all got someone else’s to read out and reply to.

Beauty about being positive and staying positive

All the problems we faced and are facing as ex-offenders are similar for all. (Financial problems, the old ways of gangs and crimes, our past life haunts us). So we replied with a positive proxy (I AM LOVED – FROM A PLACE OF HOPE). This allowed us to be empathetic and optimistic. It helped us understand that the problems we face are not impossible to resolve. We need to remain positive and stay positive no matter how hard it gets.

Discussing amongst each other

I noticed that as each one of us participated in this wonderful exchange, we realized that we are not alone and have the support from one another and the people that support us with our cause. Faith that we can overcome, hope that we will one day accomplish, and lastly, love that overcomes boundaries. Out of all these, FAITH, HOPE, LOVE – love is the greatest of them all.

How to apply this into our fight for change

The power of love is out of this world. It will always overpower the darkest beliefs, believe it or not. It breaks down the barriers between each other and brings everyone closer, and this can provide us with the power we need to join hands and become stronger as people. It can only be for the better.

As ex-offenders, we face problems in our community, not being accepted for the stigma of being an ex-offender (gangster). Even though we no longer participate in past activities, we get judged and placed in a negative way. If we can break down the barriers between us and others, it would mean everyone helping each other. There will be no barriers to stop us from getting things done.

Even in the Bible, it says in Corinthians, that out of all the gifts God has given us: FAITH, hope, and Love – love is the greatest of them all!!

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Time goes by

The older you get the scary fact that so suddenly that you are getting to a point of becoming an elder citizen. So the question is what did you accomplish? What did life treat and bless you with? Was it more hardships perhaps? Where did all the years disappear to and how fast they actually went past. You hopefully will never experience like any others do and it dawns upon themselves that even the fact that you have reached an age of distinction, sadly you lived a life wasted and in full regret.

Where does life lead you now, or do you walk alone

I can’t get to speak for anybody else except for myself, so far I will speak for me and the way I see it as what I should prepare myself for is only my peace in life, to accept that I honestly do not have any of my existence to squander on the traps that robbed me of my own happiness. I can do all I possibly can to contribute towards the better cause to help others to not follow a life of crime, gangsterism etc. Also no matter what I do it has to be of complete positivity. If I would like to spend my time elderly with peace and joy.

Got to push harder, do whatever it takes to make up for time lost. God willing I can be blessed with the lengths of days to do His will.

Easier said than done

So much to do and no time to be playing games or fooling around. There is no means now in my life to say I can accomplish such major disciplined changes that I must delight in my life if I want to succeed in the short time that I have set myself to do it. It seems like madness yes but if I could focus and dedicate myself in a positive structured manner I will be able to say that 10 years could be of person 20 years to do. I have set my mind and decided to devote my life for life for the better. For me, but also for others that need help.

Discipline equals freedom

This structure of how easy it is to acquire yourself in preparation towards a strict lifestyle, completely focused. Setting goals and executing it. Financial discipline will lead only towards my financial freedom. Emotional discipline too will end up in my freedom emotional. Now the hard point to apply this in all you endeavour in your life.

If only I did this when I was 23 years old, I will end up at a better level of society. Who knows? Think of the mindset that will only eventually end up in you setting it free!

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One of the main activities happening in prisons in South Africa is gangsterism. It has affected the prison in many ways, including physical violence, overcrowding, and sexual abuse.

My personal experience

When I was in Pollsmoor, I witnessed clashes between inmates and wardens. These kinds of issues have escalated because of the existence of gangsterism in jail. Gangsterism has caused many inmates to go out and come back again to jail. This is because some inmates want to gain respect and get promoted in their gang ranks. Other inmates are victimized by being pressured to join gangs, even if they don’t want to. Non-gang members are often ill-treated and abused.

The effects of gangsterism

Gangsterism has increased the incidence of crimes in prisons. During my time in Pollsmoor, I witnessed a warden being stabbed by inmates and a non-gang member being stabbed by one of the notorious gang members. This was a way to strengthen the gang member’s rank and gain more respect since it is part of the culture of the Number Gang. The infrastructure in prison is damaged, and fellow inmates are injured or killed due to the existence of gangsterism.

How to stop gangsterism

The prison facilities have taken measures to reduce the spread of gangs. During my incarceration in Pollsmoor, the prison offered recreational facilities to minimize gangsterism. Inmates are offered jobs; for instance, I worked as a cleaner and ended up staying in a single cell, meaning I was alone without being influenced to join a gang.

Anti-gang programs were offered, where we learned about the negative aspects of being a gangster in prison or even outside of prison. We did a Restorative Justice course, which made you think twice and reflect on your life to stop the habits that led to incarceration. Motivational speakers were invited to the prison to try and use their influence to motivate inmates to stop gangsterism. On Youth Day and Mandela Day, we were given opportunities to mix and mingle with female inmates and do sports. This minimized gangsterism since inmates were kept occupied.

However, the spread of gangsterism and its effects in prison can never be fully stopped in South Africa. Somehow, the prison system promotes gangsterism by offering a room in each section where gang members can stay alone and perform their norms and values. Additionally, some prisoners keep coming back to prison and recruit new members, passing the gang culture from generation to generation.

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Being an ex-convict

As an ex-convict, everything seems harder, even though you may have done your time. Finding employment seems almost impossible, and most of the time it’s during this time we end up facing our greatest challenge of falling back into the cycle of a life of crime due to the fact of old enemies of the past taking advantage of the adversities we may be facing. Then, we find ourselves falling prey once again to the cycle until that moment of true awakening occurs and we accept our mistakes and forgive ourselves firstly and ask all of those we may have caused trauma, like our victims and our families. In its own way, this is the greatest way of taking ownership and actually bringing oneself closer to the reality that we too, as so-called hardened ex-convicts or criminals, are actually carrying trauma as well.

An idea!!

Most crimes that are committed are in underprivileged communities, and it’s in areas like this that one will find the most people with trauma that live their lives not even being aware that they are actually living with untreated trauma. This trauma has not even yet been acknowledged, as due to the fact that it’s a ghetto, it’s accepted, deemed a norm to have violence and forms of damaging daily things occurring in the environment there. There need to be more social programs set up in communities and more study into all the different kinds of effects of trauma on individuals in social environments. Most of all, we need to start learning how to actually understand ourselves as individuals.

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The geysers are only turned on to wash when the wardens feel like it; sometimes, they do not turn on at all. At any time of the night or day, the wardens can decide to conduct a clean search of all the cells. This often leads to lots of sweat and blood because they come in with shock boards and use fire hydraulic pipes, making the cells wet. It is not something you will understand unless you experience it. That is why it is very important to always be observant because anything can happen at any time.

The Role of programs and opportunities

That is where the opportunity comes in. Organizations like Restore and the schools that the prison has, along with many others, give inmates a chance to get away from danger and to learn. Sometimes, through these programs and opportunities, inmates change for the better. That is the reason why so many inmates take any opportunity to just let time pass. It is like a dream come true just to be away from those four walls. As we say, being an inmate is like being controlled as a console on a remote.

Positive impact on inmates

Having the opportunity to attend school or participate in a Restore program helps a lot in both the inside and outside world. Your participation and commitment pay off because they support you by sorting you into programs and providing mentors. Being there is a guardian. Through my experience doing the program in prison, it made a very big difference in my mental and spiritual life. Thanks to Restore for their commitment and trusting the positive process of each and every inmate, serving justice fairly, giving our inmates a voice to speak, and a platform to transform and give back.

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Returning home

On my return home to Cape Town, South Africa, I found it hard to find my feet back in my own city. I was faced with being stigmatized as a criminal because of my past life of crime. In fact, stigmatization played a big role in my bad decisions of getting into a life of crime. Blinded by my anger of being treated as less than human because of my colour, and later on by my financial decline, I allowed myself to foolishly submerge into the criminal underworld.

Incarceration and realization

The funny thing about my incarceration was that, as a criminal, I was guilty of many crimes that I got away with for years. Karma opened my eyes the day I was wrongfully incarcerated and sentenced, for which I was grateful because I would probably be dead by now. My time in prison was an eye-opener to how I see everything.

Volunteering and social issues

Currently, I’m volunteering at different non-profitable organisations, and I’m unemployed, looking for work. In my everyday life outside, I see segregation and poverty on the rise. I hear more every day the language of the prison being spoken and popularized in music, social media, and almost in every community. The gangster culture is popular, especially in townships and even picking up in the suburbs.

Homelessness and social barriers

Homelessness is a big issue, and the projects set up are so inhumane that the less fortunate are willing to stay outside in harsh weather conditions. Identifying and reprogramming across different social groupings is of great importance when it comes to rebuilding and strengthening a nation that has such great promise. We, as a nation, need to start knocking down these social barriers, especially while facing the toughest times of this young democracy with all forms of crime at their highest.

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Let’s go to Zaza’s story. You make me go down memory lane. Zaza is a tough guy, along with his brother. His brother is the older and wiser one, while Zaza is the younger one. They grew up in Vereeniging with their mother and father. Their father was a salesman, and their mother was a bar lady. Their father worked hard and eventually opened up a clothing store. He started with one store, then expanded to two stores. Zaza’s father sold “tsotsi” clothing, including brands like Dickies, Slow Joe, Navara, All Star, and Fubu.

Life in the township

The two brothers used to go to the township to find guys who liked nice clothes. These guys, driven by their desire for fashionable clothes and with families to feed but no money, would commit crimes. The guys only knew the township life, but Zaza and his brother would take them to Sandton to buy them expensive food and take them to clubs. Zaza told me that they once took thirteen guys from the township to Melville, Yeoville, and Fourways to steal cars. They targeted rich people, often employees at Sasol petrol and other well-paying jobs. Stealing these cars once put them at risk, as the companies likely knew their employees were targeted.

A dangerous game

The guys were hijacking left, right, back, and forward. After the thirteen men returned, their payment was only two cars out of the thirteen stolen. This made the men so angry that they decided to take on the brothers. All hell broke loose. The two brothers decided to hire people to take on the other guys. Within one week, three men were down; in the second week, two more were down. In the township of Thokoza, there were funeral after funeral. In two months, eight men had passed away. The crime game became nastily rough and ugly, with a lot of violence and killings, all because of money—mula, zah, dollars, pounds.

The downfall

Zaza was the only one with a cold heart. Zaza and his brother lived in constant danger. The guys started throwing everything at the brothers. Zaza and his brother killed two men, and the police caught Zaza, leading to the death of his best friend, Christos. Zaza often talked about Christos. By this time, Zaza’s father owned the clothing stores and tried several times to bribe the police, but the law prevailed. Eventually, Zaza went to trial. After an eleven-month trial, Zaza was sentenced to twenty-one years in prison for murder. He arrived at Kgosi Mampuru prison with no parole.

Life behind bars

Zaza decided to join the 27s gang. His work involved blood and tears. His family visited him every second week. Zaza travelled from Pretoria to Bloemfontein for eight years in a row. While in prison, he worked in the kitchen section. He once stabbed someone in a big fight and received an additional twenty-five years imprisonment. I don’t know if anything can change him behind bars. Zaza used to say he liked to cheat. He was serious about killing.

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Ill-treatment and survival tactics

The main reason why new inmates join gangsterism in jail is the ill-treatment they receive from gang members. They are forced to do things such as washing the clothes of gang members, being robbed of their belongings, and becoming victims of assaults due to prison violence.

Other non-gang members join gangsterism to gain or earn respect. Gangsterism is a culture passed from generation to generation, so those who have been in the number gang for years try by all means to recruit others to keep the legacy. It might involve their family members, so it is evident that the number gang cannot be stopped.

No one is forced to join the number gang, which is predominant in South African prisons, including the 26s, 27s, and 28s. These gang numbers have a history dating back to the 1800s, and it is believed this history must be passed from generation to generation.

Boredom and long sentences

Other people join the number gang because of boredom, as inmates are locked indoors for 23 hours a day. They end up joining gangsterism as a way of passing the time while waiting for their sentence to end. Those with long sentences, such as life sentences or 25 years in prison, often join the gang because they know they will be in prison for a long time, and the only way to survive is to join gangsterism like others.

Gang members may always deprive non-gang members of their belongings, especially those who frequently get visits. Their items are often taken from them because gang members have the power to do so within the prison. In that way, non-members can become tired and feel pressured to join a gang. Another factor is hero worship; for instance, someone might want to imitate his brother or uncle, who held a high rank in gangsterism, and would want to be like him one day when he gets to jail.

Overcrowding and lack of management

In the maximum section in Pollsmoor, the section is overcrowded, and there are not enough beds for every inmate. Gang members sell beds to other inmates, using their power and violence to occupy all the beds.

When I was in Pollsmoor, I never witnessed it, but I heard rumours about the sexual assault of non-gang members by gang members. Other inmates join gangsterism to block sexual assault from happening to them.

I can even say prison authorities acknowledge gangsterism because, in every section, there is a prison cell specifically for gang members only, where they perform their rituals day and night.

In conclusion, I can say the causes of gangs are multiplied by a lack of prison management, lack of recreational activities, and overcrowding of inmates, especially in the maximum section.

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What I see going on at street level

As I spend a lot of time with others that are suffering on the street, I noticed that there are people who look at them lower. They walk on the other side of the road, almost like we forgot that could happen to any of us. People have sadly forgotten that we are all children of God. We forget about the fact that being a Christian is to help those less fortunate.

NGO, NPO, and charity work

So many organisations are out there only doing the work for those less fortunate only to benefit themselves. While I was living at the time on the streets, I came across so many places that help out those in need, but the treatment you receive is less human than you get in a different situation. It really is sad. Please don’t misunderstand me; there are those people that do charity work for helping those less fortunate to actually help the homeless, and they treat you like an equal, no matter how small you are or how you look, including your situation.

Fastest live the longest

When you find yourself in a position less fortunate, you will come across those who are in the same boat. However, they don’t seem to want to better themselves or their situation. They abuse drugs and continue to allow others around them to suffer, instead of helping one another. They make it their duty to not only bring down everyone but to make the help that is available become a lot less. It’s due to that that the people helping those in need withdraw because of being associated with these people.

In conclusion, I would like to explain a few points. First, I want to say thank you to all those people that played a vital role in assisting me and my situation to get off the streets (you know who you are). To those who are still suffering on the streets, keep your head up and stay strong. Now to the points I need to explain:

Not everybody works at the same level, surely you are aware of this. Given that on the streets those who suffer and are homeless are individuals that are gangsters and actively involved with crime, they only seem to have one desire, and that is literally to destroy and take the very last thing of those in suffering. How does one take from another that already has nothing to take? If you are fast enough, you can prevent it from happening. Your life has to speed up, or you will be left with nothing, so it consumes you with no wider perspective towards life as it moves so fast. If you were permitted the time to take a moment to think about things in your life, it will end your existence. It is the work of the devil. The fastest live the longest. Me, personally, I will choose a life of peace, nice and slow, and if it will mean to live a shorter life, then so be it! Either way, I am coming home!!

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As a prisoner, elections normally mean early release. As a law-abiding citizen, this is about negative or positive changes or improvements. Members of society would be hoping there will be a change of leadership, knowing how the economy is going to be affected.

There is also another social group that just do not care about the elections at all, who sees the election process as useless and do not believe in the potential system at all. 

When I was an active criminal

When I was an active criminal (e.g. drug dealer), I never really cared about the elections. I used to look at politicians as facilitators for criminals with higher status to be placed in positions, steal more money than I could!!! So I never cared about voting.

I know now that dumb way of looking at the system. That was how my mind set at that time. I laugh out loud!!!

My First Time Voting

This year is going to be the very first time I am voting. The city I am from is a beautiful city. Currently in Cape Town, there has been lots of construction and development, new stadiums, and government offices going up. Lots of roads are being worked on as well. My city even sold a national heritage site as well and even with homelessness and high crime, the city looks good.

My Prayer for the Elections

My prayer for the elections is that God opens the hearts and minds of all those in different political parties and actually make the nation the priority of whoever will be in power. May whoever is elected actually understand the heavy load. May everyone elected actually find the understanding of how to work together and not be driven by power, but have the wisdom to unite this diverse nation as it was in the years of freedom.

Please vote, never mind what I’ve written.

May God be with our beloved nation.

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Festive Season Challenges

We prisoners know how fast the festive season passes with all the things happening when alcohol and drugs are everywhere. We have left our families and loved ones outside, where all the action is, and where the risk is every day in front of our children’s and families’ doors. While our hands are tied and we can’t defend or protect our families, it makes it hard because every prisoner should be twice as observant as they are during other seasons of the year.

Making Choices

That’s why making choices is something you should be very mindful of because it’s not as easy as you think it is. Some make it, and some don’t. From my experience, I saw many well-educated people fall and fail. Life in prison and its package has no benefits unless you learn from your mistakes and become the change, guiding those who need it before it’s too late and they have setbacks. Stay away from crime; it has very bad consequences with dark memories that hit hard.

Life After Prison

Having to wait for ten years to find a job after committing a crime is a very big setback. So, if I were you, I would think about it when you make that one-minute choice. By then, it’s too late. Rather spend those few years behind school doors than behind closed bars with no rights and no protection in sight. Be glad and never sad because crime is bad. It makes you feel scared because it’s a life you will never forget. It’s like the biggest threat.

So, be the person who strives to live perfectly. With that said, be blessed. This message is from the heart for those young ones who want to jump the line before their time. Live your life.

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Demographics and discrimination

In Pollsmoor, I can say 50% of prisoners are black, mainly Xhosa-speaking, while 40% are coloured and the remaining 10% are white and Indian.

Racial discrimination exists both among prisoners and prison officials.

Even though members are supposed to be united, there are always conflicts between black gang members and coloured gang members.

This causes a lot of prison violence among inmates.

Personal experience

I was in prison as a black foreign non-gang member.

It was hard for me to survive, but I had to develop survival skills.

Within two weeks, I noticed that gang members were scared of foreigners in a way that gave us a little respect, unlike South African black non-gang members, who were always assaulted and ill-treated for no reason.

Gang dynamics

In prison, I observed that most gang members were coloured.

It was easier for them to attack South African black non-gang members than to attack black foreigners.

As foreigners, we formed our own groups to protect ourselves, which made the gang members respect us more.

Treatment by wardens

The treatment we received from wardens differed from others.

For example, if a black inmate complained about needing to go to the hospital, it would take a long time, especially if the warden was coloured.

We usually got out of our prison cells to exercise, especially on weekends.

That’s when we would realise the conflicts; sometimes, we couldn’t finish the exercises due to fighting.

White inmates and corruption

White inmates were very few, and white gang members were also few.

This is likely why they received better treatment, even from gangs, because they would bribe them with prison commodities and money.

There were rumours of corrupt coloured wardens who would smuggle phones, drugs, etc, unlike black wardens, who were always very strict and protected non-gang members from gang members.

Detention standards and corruption

The biggest problem in South African prisons is poor detention standards, which lead to fraudulent wardens who cover up their fraudulent ways with racism and injustice.

For instance, few black inmates were classified to get conduct visits.

Racial discrimination among inmates can be a major cause of gangsterism and prison violence, as some inmates form alliances to protect themselves.

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Okay, let me dance with this pen on this paper. In Kimberley, I met a lot of 28’s. Siya was one of them. Siya was in jail for killing his father.

The Beginning of the End

The story starts here: Siya’s father was an alcoholic, and his mother was a church sister. What happened is that Siya’s father was the only one who worked. When he came home, he was already drunk. His first stop was at the tavern, and from there he went home. When he arrived home, he would start with his mother. Siya was from the North West province, and he was the only son. Every time his mother was in trouble, his father would hit her.

The Build-Up

Every Sunday, Siya would be with his mother in church. This happened for a few years. At the age of 16, one Sunday, he told his mother that he would kill his father. The last mistake happened after he turned 16 years old. Late on a Friday afternoon, his father arrived home drunk and started trouble with his mother. Siya was already tired of this. His dad started to hit his mother. Siya tried to stop his dad, and the next thing, his dad smacked Siya. Siya went to the kitchen, took a knife, and started to tell his dad that he was evil. Seconds later, the second smack landed fully on Siya’s face. Siya lost it and started to stab his father once, twice, and down went the big man.

The Aftermath

Siya and his mother went to the police station. On the way, his mother was crying. Siya had the heart of a lion. Siya went to trial. My friend was there for a few months. After the trial, the legal aid lawyer tried to fight and tell the judge that the boy tried to defend his mother. Siya’s father was a very unhappy man, and by drinking alcohol, he thought he was happy. The judge gave Siya a hefty 15 years, but Siya was at the young boys’ section. Siya was, and still is, a friendly guy. By now, Siya was a rugby player, well-built and strong like an ox. But you must know that most of the guys have talent. Lucky for Siya, the principal loved Siya to death.

Siya’s Life in Prison

Siya stayed at K10, the section was only for the cool guys in the whole prison. The young guys moved to the bigger guys at the age of 18 years old. They started to call him the friendly giant. He became a real giant during the 15 years. Siya started to lift weights in prison. How you behave in prison will help you, and I promise you, Siya became a hero in jail. Siya trained every day, and Siya was a big mother father. From the 15 years, Siya was in prison for about 10 years. When he fought the ‘ouens’, he would always say, “You don’t start with the giants.” Siya was a happy chappie, always laughing and talking to everyone. But to take a number in prison is not only for two weeks. The ‘ouens’ would make you do things. They loved the cooks because they knew that the cooks went to all the sections, busy with drugs, weed, and knives.

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Gratitude to Mother and Sister

I want to say thank you to Mother and Sister for everything. You both were the best two mothers a young man could ever have had growing up.

I was twenty-two when you tragically passed away. Yet, on my journey, I’ve felt your presence through different people from all walks of life, even when I was in prison.

Tribute to All Mothers

Thank you to all mothers, women who, even with their own adversities and lives to live, still make time to help and have a positive impact on all those they encounter. Even if things may look bleak, know that you are a light for someone who may be on the verge of giving up on life. Don’t stop being who you are because you are affecting more positive changes in other people’s lives than you know.

Special Thanks

I need to say thank you to Lisa, head of Restorative Justice, for being a ray of hope and guidance who actually saved me in many ways as a voice of reason.

To my sister, for being a mother, father, and best friend, thanks for never giving up on me and actually loving me. To Aunty G.P for guidance The list can go on and on, so I want to say thank you to all you mothers out there being that ray of hope.

Moving Forward

My step forward is to now show my gratitude by the changes I make and the decisions I take in reaching my goals.

My prayer is that God blesses you by awakening those you come in contact with to become the change in the world that youth can actually use as a stepping stone to greatness. By your actions of being human, we can transcend to the heights of a great nation, even though we have made our mistakes.

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Growing Up Without a Father

I lost my father due to his sudden passing when I was a young boy. My mother had to replace him; she had to do the job of both parents for five kids. I don’t know how she got up every day and filled the shoes of both my dad and herself. It amazed me. I was only 15 years old at the time, and I decided to follow in her footsteps and lend a helping hand.

My Teenage Years Transformed into Adulthood

My decision to assist my mother sent me toward a future of firm structure, values, morals, and lessons. If I had not learned these harshly, I would not have been able to deal with most of life’s issues. I cannot relate to any fun teenage years. As I think back, I was fulfilling the role of an adult as a young boy. I had to sell drugs as a teenager to help out financially in the household.

The Most Important Lessons My Mother Taught Me

My mother was a beautiful woman, especially on the inside, and with that, I grew as a person. She came from Madeira (Portugal) and had certain cultural ways of doing things. Respect is a first in everything you do. Always be honest with yourself and those around you. Look after yourself but remember to put others before you at times. Remain humble to allow yourself to learn new things. Take time every day to reflect on yourself and the day you had. Lastly, in everything you do, put God first!

The Impact She Still Has on My Life Today

Ask any woman who knows me, and they will say I am a lady’s man. My mother groomed me to be a gentleman. I sometimes get told that I have alternative agendas when I treat women the way my mother brought me up. Every day, I come across things in my life that remind me of what my mother left me with.

I cherish everything she did for me!

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You are an individual

Depending on your level of mental capacity, physical traits, and most of all, traits like heart and endurance, you will have to confront the harsh realities of life on the streets. You need to have a clear understanding of yourself, your weaknesses, and strengths, or you won’t survive very long on the streets. Everything that happens in your life out there is negative and will eventually lead to your doom.

Rough sleeping and hygiene

If you come from a good home and were dressed by family, the events you must endure daily, sleeping outside and living hand-to-mouth, are extremely difficult at first. There will be times when you feel bitter inside, and because it gets tougher, the streets have a balancing effect on your position in society. Your love for yourself, things like showering and eating properly, takes a hit.

Once you start feeling the weight

Every single way you live on the streets, it takes something from you—a part of your health, your hygiene, and your cleanliness. A part of your memory of how you struggled in life is with you, even after managing to get off the streets. Now, even living indoors, I still feel the marks the streets left behind me, like an invisible scar that influences everything I do daily. For instance, when I talk to people who only discuss trivial things, I’m reminded of how ignorant they are of real life. I’ve sadly realized that no matter what, I must allow myself to stay in a better position again.

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Guidance and awakening

Please guide your creation. Guide your creation to a point where they may learn to make use of your gift that you have blessed us all with. May we use this gift as wisely as we can, as we all find ourselves captive in this world, whether we know it or not. Truly awaken our awareness of our power, otherwise known as choice. May we make use of this power wisely against a system that keeps us all captive, preventing us from prospering and living fully fulfilled, functional lives. The system is so well-hidden and operational.

May we break the bonds and effects it has on all of our lives. No longer will it be normal for our youth to fill prison cells, nor for the cycle of captivity and trauma to go untreated. No longer will we live in homes that resemble prison cells. No longer will we refuse to listen to each other and actually hear one another. May you, oh higher power, take precedence over our lives.

The system

I was born in 1980, so I’ve had a long time to reflect on the world I live in. As a Coloured or a Black person, it was normal to see prisons filled with people like us. Then things started to change, becoming harder, and white people and other ethnic groups began falling prey to the system as well. Gangsterism and crime have become so normal that even the media has popularised it.

Trauma

Trauma is the inevitable outcome of crime, as perpetrators and victims alike suffer unimaginable distress that needs to be studied and treated. Trauma has a ripple effect that rarely has a positive outcome when it comes to fostering positive social growth.

Path forward

In order for us as a nation to move forward, we need to find healing, as the ripple effect of trauma is real. There is an increase in substance abuse, and crime is rampant. The term “ethical” seems to have become a myth.

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Personal experience and challenges

When I was arrested in 2016, I faced multiple charges, including fraud and theft. I was supposed to be imprisoned for 12 months, but additional months were added due to my illegal status in South Africa. During my incarceration, my biggest challenge was the lack of visits, as my family was back in Zimbabwe. This caused me immense stress and trauma. However, I eventually earned parole due to my juvenile status.

Challenges for foreign inmates

Foreign inmates face numerous challenges in prison, including the inability to be granted parole and delays in deportation after serving their sentences. Those from distant countries can spend up to a year at Pollsmoor Prison, even after completing their sentences, because they cannot be released without legal papers. Nigerian and Pakistani nationals are particularly affected because they can only be deported to their countries by air travel. As a Zimbabwean, my proximity to South Africa made deportation easier compared to those from Nigeria and Pakistan.

Criminal involvement in prison

Most foreign inmates are charged with various offenses like drug dealing, trespassing and pickpocketing, and fraud and shoplifting. These foreign inmates often end up being recruited into gang and violent activities in prison. Privileges like education and vocational courses for diplomas and certificates are restricted due to the lack of legal documentation.

Path to rehabilitation

I initially joined the criminal world because I had no support network or employment in South Africa. Stealing was my only means of survival. However, after completing my sentence, I changed my lifestyle and started engaging with people who encouraged me positively. The creation of the PAR Action Research Group and reintegration meetings through the Restore NGO helped me avoid returning to crime.

In conclusion, I advise other foreigners that if they wish to stay in South Africa, they must have legal documentation and avoid crime. It’s better to accept any job while seeking better opportunities rather than engaging in crime and ending up in jail.

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According to Africa News, joblessness for convicts sits between 80% to 90%, with little chance of improved opportunities. Furthermore, our interest in this topic was sparked when we were contacted by a reader through The South African WhatsApp line. Responding to a story on Basic Income Grants, this reader shared with us the struggle for ex-prisoners to find work in South Africa. We were prompted to do some research on the topic and find the following opportunities for previous offenders …

EX-OFFENDERS TO FIND WORK IN SOUTH AFRICA

Through the DEL’s Public Employment Services, ex-prisoners and parolees can access the following:

• You can register as a work-seeker on an electronic job-matching database with the DEL’s Employment Services of South Africa (ESSA). Click HERE to register. The department says being registered on ESSA as a work-seeker gives you the best chance of being matched with new job opportunities.
• You can access employment counselling sessions. These include where to go and what to do with the skills you had before or obtained in a correctional facility. Plus, there are lessons on how to look for a job, develop your CV and prepare for a job interview.

DEALING WITH DISCRIMINATION

• The DEL offers work ethics sessions, to show you the ‘proper way’ of what is expected of you in a work situation. This includes skills on how to deal with discrimination during the re-integration process.
• Another great way for ex-offenders to find work in South Africa is establishing a small business or co-operative. There are courses on this, too.
• Finally, the DEL Public Employment Services can help with referrals to other organisations that specialise in ex-prisoners to find work in South Africa. One such entity is NICRO.
• So, if you are an ex-offender, parolee or on probation, and need help to find work in South Africa, register with Employment Services of South Africa (ESSA) HERE. And contact NICRO (above) for additional support. Because it’s never too late for a second chance …

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The regrets

My life felt heavy because I failed my family to please my friends, and now my choices made my family suffer because of my absence and being behind bars, blaming myself and hating the fact that I’ve hurt so many people in my life by making such a bad choice.

Reputation fall

I’ve noticed since I’ve done my sentence for what I’ve done, in my community was one of the worst things because somehow all the people in the community looked at me with a different perspective. I wasn’t trusted around certain people’s children, and most of my friends and family blocked me from their lives because I became a threat to their lives. I’ve lost everyone in my family’s trust; my neighbours started distancing themselves from me because I’ve now got a bad record on my name. Most of the people that didn’t know my previous life found out who I was, and it was difficult because now more people disliked me for a simple choice.

My life was like a curse; nothing felt like it could fall into place. Day by day, just sitting indoors under house arrest and probation, unemployed and couldn’t find work to feed my family because of a criminal record, and it made me learn to respect my time around my family and while I can still be a positive impact on the lives of the young, high-risk youth in my community and surrounding areas.

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In the beginning

I was so deep in depression when I found myself lying on the street. I was embarrassed by my situation and ashamed that this had happened to me. And scared to my bones as I never knew how to handle this lifestyle and surviving it. There were days where I had no hope, no means for living; I was taking substances. It was the beginning of a down spiral.

People I met along the way

I lived in many places while spending over 4 years on the streets. Places like Parklands, Table View, and town, ending myself up in the Southern Suburbs. I met a lot of offenders and gangsters. All of them, mostly, were involved in acute gangsterism. Drugs etc. were the main things I believed why they chased that lifestyle instead of getting their lives together. To live in those means is completely insane and to any living human being does not make sense.

Living in those conditions

I must say when I was in prison, the living conditions were not up to standards, the food too was not even edible. If I were to compare it to the living standards outside on the streets, then prison is a better place to be. No doubt.

Caught between a rock and a hard place

So I found myself there and there again that I cannot permit myself to live in those conditions and that prison would be a better place to be. Sadly, I understand why some of the ex-offenders chose to rather live the life they do, with the hard circumstances. It’s like being stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Something special that happened

I was daily locked up like rubbish, high on drugs, and it was a scary sight to see. All I ever wanted to do was hustle more and more every day, without any rest at all. I had to find a way to have something, no matter how small it was. I could not go without having something towards my name. Money, food, etc. I had to hustle to have something. I realized that I never gave myself a chance to be getting any rest, not one day at all; so as the days went by I slowly believed that if I were to get rest, then I would automatically be blessed the following day. So, yes, sometimes it’s better to have nothing sometimes!

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The issue of recidivism

Recidivism is a tendency of criminals to reoffend. It has become a routine for some inmates to go back and come to jail now and again. For instance, I have witnessed fellow inmates who were granted parole break the parole rules and come back to prison within 2 weeks. This is also the most common cause of gangsterism in prison, as some inmates, well experienced with jail, tend to recruit other new offenders as well.

Personal experience and causes

Talking about myself, before I reformed, I went in and out of jail several times. I was in Pollsmoor 3 times with different sentences for one offence. The main cause for me to get in and out of jail was unemployment. I ended up stealing, conning people, and living a criminal life. The main reason which made me come back to jail was the environment I was living in—drug world, prostitution, crime, and other illegal activities.

The impact of recidivism on the prison system

Recidivism is the main cause of South African jails being overcrowded, which leads to poor management of inmates. This leads to corruption and other illegal criminal activities. According to my own research, in other countries, recidivism has caused some inmates to escape the prison because they are used to prison life and go and come back to jail now and again. In South African jails, inmates are not given enough punishment so that they can learn and have experience that jail time is not good. There are a lot of drug addicts who live in the streets; their main activity is to practice illegal activities, which includes smoking drugs.

Reintegration efforts and personal transformation

Lack of reintegration into society has caused inmates to go back to jail. As a matter of fact, we currently have the PAR research group, which helps us a lot about going back to prison. Me and other former inmates meet once or twice a month learning; this keeps us busy and we learn about several things which teaches us not to go back to jail. It’s been almost 6 years now ever since I got released from jail. Because of PAR, I have never had a thought of going back to jail again.

Efforts to reduce recidivism

However, the prison has been making a lot of efforts to reduce recidivism by providing programs to prisoners such as restorative justice where inmates learn a lot about coming back to prison after you have been released. Unchanging lifestyle and going back to the same communities have caused a lot of recidivism where inmates go to jail and still commit the same crime they have committed before. But the major cause which makes inmates go back to jail is unemployment. According to the solo research I have made after I was released from jail, is that 80% of the youth in South Africa is unemployed. This causes the youth to use most of their time smoking drugs and committing crime, which makes them go back and come to prison again.

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Challenges in Combating Gangsterism

Gangsterism was going to be stopped, but the biggest problem in South African jails is overcrowding. Gangsterism activities are the order of the day since prisoners have nothing to do. Another main cause of not stopping gangsterism is the poor supervision of inmates. For instance, when I went to Pollsmoor, I saw that gangs are offered a room alone where they practice gangsterism day and night. By doing so, they tend to recruit other inmates who are non-gang members, and the routine continues like that.

The Impact of Overcrowding on Violence

Overcrowding in prison cells also causes violence. By doing so, inmates end up forming gangs to stabilize violence, since these gangs have leaders who will control the cell to impose discipline within inmates. The main cause of prisons being overcrowded is waiting for trial inmates, which leads to tension, hostility, and violence. In Pollsmoor, the most aggressive gang members are found in the maximum security prison.

The Role of Society in Sustaining Gangsterism

Lack of reintegration into society also causes gangsterism. You find that some inmates already come to prison while they are gangsters. In South Africa, gangs are practised in neighbourhoods like Manenberg and Hanover Park. These are dangerous places which cause gangsterism. Also, the routine of going in and out of jail of an inmate, they tend to go back to the same society unchanged in lifestyle and social circle upon release. This promotes gangsterism as inmates already know how to penetrate gangsterism in order to survive when they go back to prison.

Efforts to Reduce Gangsterism

Although gang culture is the main activity in South African jails, the Correctional Services have made a lot of efforts to reduce gangsterism in prison. Anti-gang programs are being done in prisons to reduce gangsterism. When we were at Pollsmoor, former inmates and former gang members used to come to prison via these programs to encourage and motivate inmates not to join gangsterism.

Also, some of the efforts made were to keep inmates busy during the day so that they get occupied. Inmates were offered jobs; some went to school and did courses. Also, church services were held. All these were efforts offered by the prison facilities to discourage gangsterism in jail. However, regardless of all these efforts, gangsterism in South Africa will never end because it is a prison culture that is passed from generation to generation.

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Convergence of Personal and Academic Challenges

For example, I have had a few of my close friends end up getting locked up the same time the research group I belong to was busy preparing to deliver an artistic visual poem on how modern masculinity of an ex-convict is harder for society to embrace because of how modern society preserves the modern ex-convict as nothing more. Though a harder view, which should be feared because of the current experience like ex-baggy pants, tattoos, and was forger criminal record and going ties I am in the underworld. This mindset that convicts are unapproved is what we are trying to change, and all of this took place at Stellenbosch University.

Intense Academic Insights at Stellenbosch

The main lecture was about the construction of black boudoir; it was done by a strong black woman, spreading across historical contemporary times like those of the African women examining their relationship to intimacy within their environment. Stellenbosch went even deeper by distinguishing what schools such as Holocaust in 1945 cause aesthetics of resistance and how it highlights black women mainstream within a private sphere such as the boudoir as a way to reason their womanhood; to turn the gaze upon.

The deeper the lecture on the black boudoir carried on, the more I realized it was all about empowering black women, reasserting womanhood, and explaining how much power a woman really has. The main aim of her was to analyse the implications for the black imagination by exploring themes of desire.

Positive Outcomes, Shared Spaces and Empowerment

At the same time, if I look at diverse cultures that were present at the fest, we as ex-convicts found ourselves in the same space as feminists. I know that something positive was accomplished. At the end of it all, we are all just in the space of trying to empower ourselves with a construction of our own boudoir that goes for all races, genders, and people of social standing.

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As simple as it might seem to answer the topic question of how have I changed as a person while in prison, it is a pretty profound question to answer. In prison or out of prison it is the duty of every human being to continue to grow and evolve, yes? 

My life before prison was not so much a troubled life; I was gainfully employed, maintained a relationship and was even a member of my community in good standing.

Behind closed doors however, it was a more disruptive environment saddled with depression, alcoholism and drug usage to self-medicate from unresolved childhood issues stemming from abuse, abandonment issues and identity crisis. 

I was raised by my maternal grandmother from the age of three in a predominately white but diverse neighborhood which stunted my Black education and Black identity. 

Coming to prison was a culture shock and by my speech and socializing more with white people it would be remiss to say that I was not readily accepted within the prison’s Black population. That is until it was discovered that I could write. 

Requests from my brothers to write letters to lawyer’s, girlfriends and wives became a means to socialize in a community I was familiar with and yet could not fully identify with because these Black people acted differently from the ones I was raised around. 

Time tends to take a toll on an individual and serving time in prison makes it that much harder to live. The endless constraints of being told what to do, where you can or cannot go. The constant threat of punishment as you try to live this life in honor of those I have caused harm to adds stress. What if the victim’s family member was in this prison? 

When I was younger I was the class clown, the jokester to make people laugh. Did not take accountability for anything I did. However, I did accept whatever the punishment was for whatever it was that I had done. 

Basically, I had a troubled past going in and out of [county] prison for things like unauthorized use of a motor vehicle; driving under the influence, breaking and entering of a business. All of which came back to haunt me when I received the punishment of a life sentence. 

As the comedian Kevin Hart says, “you gon’ learn today” and learn did I do. 

How I have changed or what I have learned is that I MUST LIVE FOR ME. In the past it was about who could I impress, make to like me, validate me because of the self-identity issues? Being raised by my grandmother I watched her being of service to many people and that is where I learned it from. 

Being a church lady it was nothing to wake up in the early morning hours to find her making fresh baked bread, or cakes or some other form of delectable treat for the church committee; a neighbor who needed, or some other organization that made a request for two dozen this or that. 

Grandmom worked as a Private Duty Nurse for several Jewish families which meant for the most part she lived-in; taking care of the elders of that family and the children, cooking and cleaning. Coming home periodically, weekends, to take care of me her 12-13 year old grandson. 

What control of my life do I have if my emotions are tied up in what others may think of me?

What goes on around me? Should I strive inside myself to be what everyone thinks I should be, will I know if I lose my identity to who I want to be in my own life? 

Prison has its walls and fences around it but the freedom I seek from a yesterday I once lived does not have to define me or confine me to some eternal grave of mistakes made. Will I forget what it is to be free inside my own mind behind time spent living for others who now no longer need me for me? 

Those so called friends never heard from again as the prison doors swallow you up, shutting you off from the outside world. 

It has been 24 years and I am much older than I was when I got here at the age of 37. Those who know me would say that I am more serious in my attitude, more mature. While the masses may confine their lives inside the prison I am looking beyond these walls and chain link fences to reach out to those who love me. 

Those I have hurt with my past deeds. 

I am willing to help whomever may need it but in prison that comes at a cost. People will sidle up to you and befriend you to get what they want that you have. So I had to become strong and confident. More self-assured as to who I am in this grand scheme of the prison industrial complex. 

One thing that has not changed with me is still being of service. The institution has provided an opportunity to be a Certified Peer Specialist (CPS) worker and I reach out to the men in the Restricted Housing Unit (RHU) helping those with mental health issues or just being an ear to those who need it. 

Prison has afforded me the ability to grow into a responsible individual and take an account of my past to lead a better life for tomorrow. Who among us is perfect? So I cannot say that I do not have some of the issues that have held me captive, however, I am able to reach out to some family and friends who love and care enough about me today that yesterday would have locked me out of the house no matter how hungry or dirty I was. 

The things I may have lost by coming to prison are nothing compared to the endless, priceless and eternal growth that otherwise may not have occurred in my life. 

The joy of a slow walk in the rain, or to sit and stare out the window watching a spider spin a web. To see the fluttering of butterflies wings, the things I did not take notice of in the past. Running around chasing drugs kept me blind to the beauty of life. Kept me from being the man I was born and raised to be. 

Such a transition was not easy and there are days today I question why and is it really worth it? To surrender your life to something beyond this plane of existence, when no matter what good you do is not always taken into consideration. You must look deep within yourself and know whose you are so that In God the strength to endure will be there. 

I surrender. 

Today life has such meaningful purpose for me and my soul that I want to live and give so much back. While we cannot make up for lost time, I can do today what is important in life and love myself so that I may love others and live in honor of those I have hurt. 

That is how I have changed as a person while in prison. 

The article was facilitated by Erin Parish from the Human Kindness Foundation (HKF).

The Human Kindness Foundation’s mission is to encourage more kindness in the world beginning with people in our prisons and jails.

HKF has published several books including: We’re All Doing Time, Lineage and Other Stories, Deep and Simple, and Just Another Spiritual Book and provide these books for free to people currently serving time in prisons or jails.

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Facing Old Demons

It’s a battle before going home because, before going to prison, there were so many bad things I’ve done, and I wasn’t sure who was waiting. But what I knew was that there were people waiting for me to be released from prison to be killed for things I didn’t even do. It was a battle because I was not sure if I have to commit a crime in prison to stay longer, or should I just face what’s waiting for me. I knew somehow if they would just find out the truth, I would then step out because if the truth didn’t come out, I would have been dead. That’s where I started pulling myself away from the negative friends and distancing myself from all the negative things I’ve done.

Seeking Help and Rehabilitation

I asked Lisa of Restore to help me get into programs to be more equipped to face the outside world because it was and is still very hard finding work with a criminal record. It’s easy to sell drugs and take the shortcut, but I don’t want to be back where I came from. It’s dark, and you will never have peace with life; you will always be restless and dark. But for how it is with all the corruption and violence, it’s hard staying on the right path and out of prison because there are not many opportunities for people coming out of prison.

Navigating Post-Release Life

And it was also very difficult to travel to the programs I had to attend because of ongoing gang violence in my community. Every morning when I wake up, I’m grateful because, for how things are now, it’s very risky. The friends I left behind while in prison also changed to other gangs and are not the same; lots of good friends died. There was no one left that I could trust. Living in a community where you don’t know who your enemies are and who is in for you, walking around looking over your shoulder everywhere you go, is like the norm to me now. That’s how bad things turned out.

Adjusting to a Changed World

Looking from a positive perspective, things just got harder because coming from a prison life and living that life made a big gap between the outside and inside prison. Trying to catch up for what I’ve been missing out on and to cope with the new generation of gangs is a problem. Being provoked and not wanting to retaliate because I know what that life brought me, and I’ve learned through my mistakes.

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12 Years Ago

So, it’s been 12 years since something really drastic happened to me. I won’t mention too much in detail, but basically, it’s 12 years on from then, so I am expecting something remarkable to happen this year, 2024! I know it will be something amazing, as I don’t believe that life can throw me a curveball of the same degree twice. Something has to give.

My Personal Pledge

I want to let you know that I will make a pledge that no matter what happens or transpires from this, I will change somebody’s life around. Since the day I turned my life around, all I ever wanted to do was help another person establish the point of change in their life. It really is an out-of-this-world feeling, realizing the power that you possess and stepping out of the dark and into the light. THIS IS MY PROMISE!

Maybe The World Will Be A Better Place

If the world’s trillionaires or tycoons can sacrifice 1% of just one month’s salary, did you know that the world can be a better place? Things like poverty and suffering will disappear; there will be nobody suffering, and certainly, I don’t believe that there will be a huge influx of offenders.

I believe one day we will accomplish what we have set out to do or, at the least, started the ball rolling in that direction of change. Just like I believe that the youth will have accepted the knowledge and wisdom, not to follow just what they see in their lives and community. Gangsterism and violence should not be accepted as a choice of life.

My life walk so far has not been one of glory; however, it has been a life of learning how life works on both ends. I also had the blessing of changing my life from a life of crime and gangsterism to a life of good and part of a new perspective. A perspective that I believe will help others not to live the life I did.

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The Confrontation on the Field

Big Boy asked the captain, “Must I give him the special one?” That is the short ball. Big Boy finished his first over. Kraai started his over; now it’s Big Boy again. On one of the turns, the guys screamed like a shebeen queen. The second over started outside off, the third hit against the elbow, the team doctor was by the batsman. 4th ball, a shot against the head, that guy fell face first. Broken Ray-Ban, but one thing, he stood up, he fought his battle. This guy is lying face first on his back. Big Boy came and told him, “I don’t care what Ferrari you drive, what penthouse you stay in now.You are playing with the big boys.”

The 5th ball, outside off stump, the poor guy was not sure about his stumps. The last ball, the middle stump flew out; it missed Sawas, our keeper. We won that game by 40 runs. That was a game that I will never forget. If you can watch “The Longest Yard”, it’s almost like that, but this is about a rich boy wanting to teach us the gentleman’s game.

Aftermath and Reflections

When they told us about Patel’s medical report Umpire Carl said to us, “Guys, easy on the guy. He’s the sponsor.” This guy had never played a game of cricket; this is a businessman. Big Boy said, “Be careful how you play cricket.” Some of those rich boys who came to visit us ended up being good friends. I used to have his numbers on my old phone. Sawas, our wicketkeeper, is working full-time for Patel’s brother in Silverton. Big Boy Pat is a driver for one of Patel’s friends. Marcus is security at David’s supermarket. Some guys are in the North West. Okay, right, until next time, goodnight.

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The Church Service

On Sunday of the Easter holiday, people from outside came with a Pastor, and a church service was held. Everyone who wanted to pray was allowed to do so. I was also one of the people who joined the church service. It was overwhelming seeing other prisoners, including gangsters, murderers, and drug addicts, telling us their testimonial journeys and how they welcomed Jesus Christ as their personal saviour. This church service welcomed everyone to pray, including Muslims and Rastafarians.

Easter’s Impact in Prison

Celebrating Easter in prison is different from outside; outside, you have your freedom and don’t think too much, unlike when you are incarcerated. For me, Easter in prison was a beacon of hope at a time when I was hopeless. It allowed me to revisit my life and realize I needed to change, knowing that through Jesus Christ, who died for our sins, I would one day be out of prison.

Personal Reflections and Influences

I remember having a friend, a fellow inmate, who led prayers. He was sentenced to life in prison for murder but was a born-again Christian. He always mentioned that God forgives everybody, giving me hope and strength. He shared his past of joining a gang and committing robberies, but Easter reminded him of how his sins were washed away at Calvary when Jesus died on the cross.

The Role of Prison Officers

Besides other inmates, we had prison officers who preached to us during Easter. One officer, nicknamed “pastor,” possibly a chaplain, held authority over religious matters among inmates, whether they were Rastafarian, Muslim, or Christian. He organized for people from outside to come and pray for the inmates.

Visitation and Reunion

Another interesting aspect of Easter in prison is that it is a public holiday, so all sentenced prisoners are allowed to be visited by their families or loved ones, reuniting for a temporary time.

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Remembering why we celebrate Easter

Over these holidays, a lot of religious groups gather and prepare meals in thanksgiving to God for sending His only Son, Jesus, to die on the cross and that His blood that was shed was to pay for all our sins. He also showed His might and power by bringing His Son back from the dead.

Time with family to remember Easter

We always had a special family gathering over the Easter weekend and came together and spent it together. It was tradition, so you never missed a holiday. Seeing cousins and uncles, aunts reminded me how truly special family was and how beautiful it was those special times! Food was in total abundance, and we always shared a feast, love you felt was the ultimate thing I cherished back then.

Spending Easter inside prison, compared to Easter 2024

After the passing of my mother in 2019, then my elder brother and sister passing the following year, family spending Easter with me is a sad memory. I also remember how sad it was when I was in prison. Really, it hit home when you realize that you will not be spending it with them, then the next year too. As for the next seven years, I was not at Easter family gatherings. It became a part of my destiny to only have the memories of those special times. Compared to outside to this day, I have to be honest that it was just like when I was in prison. Family all gone.

Taking it in my stride every time

Basically, I had no immediate family left, most have passed on and the few that are still alive and well have forgotten I even existed to them. My own fault for bringing shame to my family, so I was regarded as dead to them all. I miss you guys, all of you. I pray that we may all be reunited in the future to come or even in the afterlife.

We as ex-offenders need this in our lives to recover; it helps us to feel a balance and perhaps a sense of good. So as I spent my Easter remembering what historical events took place for all humankind, I cherish the times I get to spend with all that is in my life today. You guys are all my family, and I appreciate you!

Have a wonderful and safe holiday this Easter and give acknowledgement to our Lord and His Son, Jesus Christ.

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Birthday Behind Bars

I remember on my birthday waking up and getting breakfast, everyone wishing me happy birthday, asking me what I am doing today. I recall holding back my tears, thinking they could see me cry. And right after breakfast, I recall being called. The warden still made a joke with me, saying, “You’re going home; it’s your lucky day.” And I remember feeling confused. And he quickly corrected himself, saying, “Are you stupid? You’re going nowhere!” There I started crying uncontrollably, just standing there facing the warden so the rest of the cell didn’t see my tears. And then he went on to say, “Hurry up, prisoners, or you will miss your visit,” opened the metal gate, and still proceeded to put the metal handcuffs on me, the metal chain going down to my feet.

When I asked them why, why the handcuffs, leg irons? He just said to me, “I must make you look good for your people with all your jewelry!” Again, I was shocked. I just went into praying, asking my god to be with me as I am going through this part of my life. As I got to the visitors’ windows, I saw my father, my sister; they both burst into tears just seeing me in this way. My sister could not even speak as she just couldn’t stop crying. Of course, that made me cry more, then my father started crying. In my entire life, maybe three times in my life, and there we sat just staring at each other for about 15 min, but it felt like a lifetime had passed in that time.

Emotional Visitation

And I then found myself telling them to stop crying, that everything will be okay, that the sun will rise again tomorrow, although I felt my heart breaking into a hundred thousand pieces. There was no way I was going to show them how truly I felt. But I had to be the tough son, the strong brother that they knew. How was I to do this? Oh my god! Please be with me, guide me through this day. Like that, I started feeling better. As my visit was coming to an end, my father and sister picked up a bag from the floor and started approaching the content of the bag in front of me. The warden, standing behind me, shattered me inside when he said I couldn’t have that inside. So, what now?

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My mother had breast cancer, and it was very hard for me because I was not there while my brother and sister needed me the most, and I never wanted to be away from them again. It was really hard sitting behind bars while life is going on while yours is stuck in prison. It’s like torture to yourself, blaming yourself for the stupid things that brought you to a place like prison. Always feeling restless made me think that I need to change my life, not to be locked up again.

Support Systems and Rehabilitation

That’s where I had people in my life like Restore, Lisa Marqua-Harries was always by my side, supports me and my family. It was not easy for me to get used to living in a positive world because things were not so easy for me, but it is worth being the person who I am today. Looking back from where I came from, it’s a really big progress in my life. Coming out on parole was also not easy. Being at home was and under house arrest was not easy. It’s very tempting to step outside but also fear being locked up again, and the wardens visiting your home made it even harder.

Eventually, I found a way to occupy myself by asking Lisa of Restore to help me get into a program called RLabs. It’s a youth uplifting organization focusing on youth and community development. After attending the program for three months, I then started, after my 3 months, to volunteer with the organization to care for our elder people of the community at an elderly club. I was part of the youth that was chosen to do the job by the organizers, RLabs, and it was all thanks to Lisa for helping me through the process to better myself for the best.

A New Path and Future

To be a good husband and father, it didn’t stop there. I was doing odd jobs until I heard of Chrysalis Academy in Tokai, and I thought it would be a great stepping stone for me to boost my life away from gangsterism and the reality of my community. To feed my family, it was not easy because Chrysalis Academy has a strict criterion, and I had a criminal record. As we know, it’s a big problem in South Africa to have a criminal record, but I knew I would be accepted because I believed, because I’ve prayed, and I know people always pray for each other.

I’ve asked Lisa if she knows about Chrysalis, and she told me she is in contact with the CEO, and there I knew it’s God’s work. I got a date for an interview with the CEO, and that is where my life had a very big turn for the better. Working with youth and living in a positive environment where you sleep safe, no gunshots or contact with the outside, everyone being treated fairly, and being built and equipped with the necessary skills to face the world with two different perspectives of life. Knowing the good and the bad, the world in the prison and Chrysalis is both totally different to how the life in the hood is like. The Cape Flats have a unique culture in life, and it made me who I am, a changed person for the better, just learning every day and taking my past as a stepping ladder to do better each day.

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Parole vs. Sentence Completion

It’s very different when you are being released on Parole and when you finish your sentence because when you are released on Parole, you are still under the supervision of the parole board, but when you finish, you are completely free. When you are released on Parole, it means you have to be under the conditions you are being given by the parole board. Failure to comply with the condition, your chances of going back to jail are high. You are reporting to the parole officer regularly, and you must not commit any parole violations because that’s breaking the Parole rules. When you are released on parole, the parole officer takes you home where you stay, but when you finish your sentence, the prison provides you with a bus or train ticket and they drop you by the train station…that is if you don’t have anyone to pick you up.

Bail and Conditional Release

Unlike Parole, you can go to the court and the judge gives you a certain sentence and tell you that it’s either you pay a certain amount of money or stay a certain period in Prison. If you have someone to pay bail for you, you can be released from the court immediately, but if you don’t have someone to pay for you…you can go to jail and be locked up but still, you can get bailed from the jail and go home. The more days you stay, the amount of money you were supposed to pay as bail is also decreasing. Before inmates are being released, especially on parole, inmates are being encouraged to do certain programs such as restorative justice, reintegration, and other Pre- and post-release programs.

Special Considerations for Release

A medical Parole is also another type of release. This is being granted to inmates diagnosed with diseases such as cancer and other deadly diseases. It is given to an inmate when he has a medical letter from the practitioner who is treating the inmate. There are other examples of release such as probation, but this one is given to inmates whose sentence was suspended. Probation can also be the release of an inmate from detention because of good behaviour or character, but you will be also under supervision.

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